The first foray into dating seems to have been a bust. I’m not sure if I got blown off or forgotten or what, but getting all dressed up for no reason really pissed me off. Is this how adult dating goes? A guy acts really into you, asks you out, and then gets “sick” or flat forgets you? If that’s the case, I’m so not into this. I do not have time for that! (Insert requisite, virally popular “Ain’t nobody got time for that!” meme here.) I don’t know how adult dating goes, and it scares me. And I don’t know what I want in a man really, I suppose. I know what I don’t want. That one is easy. What I do want is hard! I want to be wined and dined, darnit! I deserve that. I deserve someone to be SO into me that they want to take me out. Woo me. I deserve that! I deserve to not always have to pay for everything either. This is stupid. It could possibly be the reason why I put off divorce for so long too. At least married I was… whatever. Miserable… but… not having to enter the terrifying world of dating.
I’m pretty sure I’m in too much of a hurry for my own good also. I’ve been abandoned for so long, I feel like. I’m so ready to move on. This is stupid! And it wasn’t the plan! And now there’s no plan and it makes me seriously uncomfortable. Gah!