Oh. Well, I guess we had to get to this. My answer probably isn’t quite the one you might expect either. Kind of maybe, but not fully. The hardest thing I have ever experienced is not my husband going to prison… Though that is close and has something to do with it. It has been letting God lead my life, and let me tell you, some days I don’t do well with it at all.
It is hard to turn over control. It is hard to do something you’re told to do when every fibre of your being is telling you to do otherwise. (That’s usually Satan doing that, and sometimes that is hard to recognize.) It is so hard to forgive those who have wronged you.
This a daily struggle for me, and on top of my other struggles, I am tired sometimes and just want to rest. I don’t know why we always forget to ask God for help with things. It’s always “I’ve got this…. I’ve got this, I think I’ve got this….. I don’t got this… Ok, God. Your turn. Fix it for me.” And then we are mad because WE wasted all this time, and God doesn’t do it right the second that we asked. I’ve got to be better about going to Him first. He really does have all the answers.